BUT, I haven't let my business, workouts and journey slide! Some days and weeks are better than others, of course, but every single day is an opportunity for progress and improvement.
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Someone asked me in a message the other day if all of the working out, the clean eating, making the effort to manage my own business as a Team Beachbody Coach even with Two-Under-2 was REALLY worth it. Wasn't I putting too much emphasis on myself? Didn't I think it was shockingly selfish and unbalanced? Shouldn't I just accept the way I "was now" and place every ounce of energy and attention into the lives of my babies and husband?
I admit I just sat and blinked at that message for a while. A long while. And swallowed down my initial reaction to send a message with as big and loud of a virtual shout as I could (think ALL capital letters.)
Let me share a little something with you:
If I hadn't made the decision to invest in my own health and well-being, if I hadn't pushed that "Purchase" button on my PiYo Challenge Pack (through the nail biting and anxiety about the "expense"), if I hadn't made the decision to sign up as a Team Beachbody Coach,...my life would undoubtedly be in a very different place today.
I would still be drowning in that frighteningly black sea of postpartum depression. I would still be staring at my prepregnancy clothes, lamenting my entrance into the world of "Frumpy Mama-ness" and struggling under the heavy burden of low...no, make that NO self-esteem. I would be fatigued by the mere thought of taking my children to the park to play a game of tag, pushing my little girl on the swing or carrying her up the steep hill to the top of the slide (her absolute favourite)...and, consequently, even more depressed. I would have been unable to help when my husband's student loans were extremely delayed and we found ourselves wondering how to get by until they came in...months later. I certainly wouldn't have the strength to support my dearest husband to the very best of my abilities, to be an example of strength, dignity and confidence for my small children, or to be employing my education and experiences to help others to live healthier, happier lives and achieve financial freedom.
Instead, I was able to keep good, healthy food on the table, provide diapers and clothing for my babies, and peace of mind for my husband and myself. I freed myself from the overwhelming clutches of postpartum depression and self-pity, have been building up my depleted self-esteem, have more time and energy to spend with my little Irish Twins, and can be all the more present for my husband in our Austrian adventure. And I am helping a number of other struggling and overwhelmed people find time and energy for themselves so they can better their health and lives for the sake of their families. It's all for them. Everything I do.
And it has been the biggest blessing for all of us.
Don't hesitate. Push send on that message, drop me an email,...I promise I don't bite. ;)
I would still be drowning in that frighteningly black sea of postpartum depression. I would still be staring at my prepregnancy clothes, lamenting my entrance into the world of "Frumpy Mama-ness" and struggling under the heavy burden of low...no, make that NO self-esteem. I would be fatigued by the mere thought of taking my children to the park to play a game of tag, pushing my little girl on the swing or carrying her up the steep hill to the top of the slide (her absolute favourite)...and, consequently, even more depressed. I would have been unable to help when my husband's student loans were extremely delayed and we found ourselves wondering how to get by until they came in...months later. I certainly wouldn't have the strength to support my dearest husband to the very best of my abilities, to be an example of strength, dignity and confidence for my small children, or to be employing my education and experiences to help others to live healthier, happier lives and achieve financial freedom.
Instead, I was able to keep good, healthy food on the table, provide diapers and clothing for my babies, and peace of mind for my husband and myself. I freed myself from the overwhelming clutches of postpartum depression and self-pity, have been building up my depleted self-esteem, have more time and energy to spend with my little Irish Twins, and can be all the more present for my husband in our Austrian adventure. And I am helping a number of other struggling and overwhelmed people find time and energy for themselves so they can better their health and lives for the sake of their families. It's all for them. Everything I do.
And it has been the biggest blessing for all of us.
Don't hesitate. Push send on that message, drop me an email,...I promise I don't bite. ;)
